Filler post

I haven't blogged in months so here's a filler post. Human memory is a fickle thing. Somethings that happened years ago we remember like it was yesterday and some things from hours ago feel like they were from last week. I don't remember where my glasses are when they are in fact already on this accident of a face. (Terrible humour is how I roll)

Human-to-human memories are even more odd. When we do something bad to someone, we remember forever (I'm assuming you're not a psychopath) and when we do something nice for someone we can forget. The target of our nice act will probably remember what you did however. And if someone hurt (or just slighted) you, they may forget but you won't.

Examples: I met a friend I hadn't seen in a year (or two?) last week. She said I gave her a note once long ago with some cake I gave her and she still has that note. I don't remember doing any such thing, haha. I met another (also haven't seen in a long while) recently to give her a present. Partly because she once said or rather (jokingly) complained that (paraphrase), "You always give her* stuff! She's your favourite!". *A mutual friend. She didn't remember saying that but I sure did. I was texting a different friend about two weeks ago and jokingly told her to not do anything weird on Valentine's day. Then she turned it around and told me to not do anything weird because she recalled that I had once talked about intercourse in debate practice and someone remarked that "its like you know what you're talking about" or something like that. Again, I don't remember this exchange ever taking place.

It seems like I just have bad memory.

Point is that people sometimes forget how they made others feel but those 'others' don't forget how that person made them feel and you never know what kind of memory imprint you can leave on people in various situations. This goes both ways so lets all make sure to leave positive impressions of ourselves in others. (A thing I admittedly fail at 60% of the time). Another friend keeps reminding me of my lack of social grace. Man, I hate that guy. Muahaha!

Observations #1

No profound topic this time. I didn't stumble upon some deep concept or ideas and roll with it to type out a thought-provoking article. The human mind doesn't work like that, I think. Strokes of genius just occur at random, but not this day, for me anyway. Perhaps for actual geniuses, their epiphanies occur with much more frequency, maybe they can even summon it at will.

So, you know how random thoughts pop into our mind every now and then? Some are just mundane and others are quite interesting or funny for example. I had a text conversation (yes, conversation via text. Hopefully I’ll see her soon in person) with a friend. So we were talking and in the end at the end as we were saying our goodbyes, she says something along the lines of “Later, shorty” or maybe it was “take care, shorty” or something similar.

Shorty was/is her nickname for me. A nickname she hasn't used in a long time. Anyway, this particular conversation took place some time ago. But the whole “shorty” thing popped into my mind today. I am actually short unfortunately. I'm kind of dwarfed by many people my age and I'm probably at or near the age where I stop getting any taller. I used to be taller than most my classmates but that is no longer the case. I didn't choose the tip toe life, the tippy toe life chose me.

We humans are complex beings capable of feeling a wide range of (sometimes conflicting) emotions, often simultaneously. In this instance, when the word “shorty” registered in my brain, I felt kind of nostalgic and some weird fuzzy feeling because well, its a nickname. Also felt a bit of embarrassment because I'm actually short. Some curiosity because I haven’t seen her in a while and maybe she’s already grown taller than me.

On an unrelated note, its crazy how lightning can be so calming, captivating and scary all at the same time. I was in a position that allowed for an unrestricted view if the night sky. It was raining heavily and lightning occurred with great frequency. So magnificent, a white blue streak of pure energy. A long line, like a spear from the heavens. My heart skipped a beat each time a lightning bolt appeared, managing to light up the infinite sky. I was also afraid I would get roasted. Amazing.